Friday, January 16, 2015

Jumper


the way you love him
makes me remember 
the way i used to love before
when i gave everything
and didn't hold anything back-
now consequences 
have sharpened caution
i want to test
safety nets
before jumping
but
look at you,
reckless nose-diver
putting us all to shame
you prefer broken bones to a hollow heart?
i can hear the air around you
whispering
take heart, take heart
even if it breaks
and takes
years, to simply learn
to love yourself again
take heart

and there you are
you've jumped
without ropes or nets or cords 

but i can see
those moments of delight
when i, and all watching
could have sworn, by god,
that your fall
was truly 
flight.

Thursday, January 15, 2015

Method

Sylvia Plath gets too much attention. 
It's like her body of work wasn't enough, 
she had to outdo all her contemporaries 
and future generations of troubled poets
with death.

All these writers trying to outshine one another,
I cannot fathom the depth 
of this insanity
of creation.

I try to decide how to match them. 
How creatively they save themselves 
from oblivion.
-

Wednesday, January 7, 2015

Coming home

(on the train from Andheri to Malad)



A harmonica tempers the air with a quaint tune.
A man washes his hands and sits down on the floor to eat. 
This train is his restaurant on wheels.

 Where are we headed? 
All of us are going with the train but our journeys don’t end at the same place, do they?
 
As another station slips past, tube-lights and hoardings try to add flavour to the night.
A flock of people disembark. An even larger group gets on. 
We are always headed somewhere, it seems.

The harmonica has resurfaced. 
This time I catch a peek of a face framed trough the shining metal rods of the train grill. 
A visually-challenged man slowly edges forward. 
People give coins.
What I think is love, could easily be pity. Why do they give? 
Is there thought behind their giving or is it unconscious. 

There are men who are  huddled on the floor. 
They sit with folded legs and abandon. 
They are lost to the world that slips by. 
Small smartphone displays make a world that was previously unavailable, now accessible.
They give these screens undivided attention. 

I see a metal-framed bridge under construction.
 A few years ago it didn’t exist. 
Today it is on its way to completion. 
How soon the city changes...

Sometimes it feels like that friend who went to a fancier college or got a better job and then was suddenly in another league. Still familiar but evidently alien. 

Would this city reject me if it ever found out that I wasn’t keeping up?
Lost in words and thoughts, the train now edges into familiar surroundings. 
It will go on into the distance but I must stop. 
Each of us has to disembark somewhere.


Sometimes I wonder about life. 
How can we ever know if we disembarked at the right stop?


Friday, January 2, 2015

On Validation


you do not need the world
to validate your existence 
you are bone and blood
animated by air

you are fire and spirit and soul
the elements support you
the earth holds your weight
here you stand
anchored, alive and awake

don't ask for approval
stamp your feet
leave your mark
make things better 
for yourself and others

change the world, if you can.
let everyone see your worth.